Seems like my download is still pending. At least this is how it feels when there are two days left till the end of the month and you are still searching for a place to stay, waiting for the job interviews, and the only thing for sure is that Purim is going to start on Wednesday and chances are very small, that anything will go after that.
What is Purim? It is one of the craziest times of the year, when people get dressed up and party for ALAP (as long as possible). The city will turn into a jungle and people from all over the world will come to join this event. And me lucky one is here and I have none of my costumes with me. Why did nobody inform me? WTF!? This is really killing me. Until today I was not really creative, since the thought of being homeless was kind of blocking my energy flow.
Until now, I have made up three costumes. The first one is a sia dancer with a pink wig, a nude body, and leggings. For the parade I wanna go as a hippie, gypsy would have been even more authentic, but I have this amazing white lace dress that needs to be shown. And then there is something big coming up. My friend gave me this silver body and it is so smoking hot, that I NEED to make a costume out of it. So watch out for a big assed Kim walking down the streets of TLV. 😎
I just love this mentality. Work hard, party hard. This is exactly my way of living. Although not working at the moment (second month just passed ✌🏼), the last weekend was a big balagan and somehow brought be back to life. Full of bad decisions and even worse actions (how did I manage to leave my phone on the toilet in the club and was not able to find it again??), but still full of joy and happiness. It’s all about the people. And there is worse than losing a phone. Losing a leg for instance or someone you love. And there are golden angels bringing back your phone in TLV, and even BIGGER ones bringing you a new one. I really cannot complain. 😏
But how is it actually like when you stop doing all the things that you are doing and start being who you are? Breaking the routine and allowing yourself to be you is a great experience. I feel that I am different every day and so is every day here a different one. The more you open up and accept things, the better it gets. And I enjoy this open-minded and non-jugdemental environment so much, that I cannot imagine anything else anymore in my life. And when you find this place in your life, you just know that everything will turn out well, it just needs time, and you have to do it step by step.
So this is actually what I am doing, taking every day by day, taking the time for myself, and enjoying having these amazing people around. I know that I am repeating myself, but this culture is so extraordinary, and I feel so much at home here. Nobody pays me for this, I am not an Israel promoter, and I don’t even know, whether I will be able to stay here, but this place is bringing me so close to being who I really am, that I just can spread my love and appreciation for this country.
How is this month going to end for me? I have no idea. And this is the best part. Not knowing gives you opportunities, it gives you the magic of “anything could happen”, and this is the best feeling in the world. When anything is possible and it’s up to you to make it happen. I found an apartment yesterday, and guess what, it is close to my place now, close to Carmel market, there is a cat loving couple, I just love the place, and the best thing about it, I will get it, because a very special person here believes in me and supports me. Love is all you need – TLV.
my beatitude 
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