The calling

Maybe not the conventional way to start, but just to let you to know, where my calling comes from. Did you ever make such an experience? Knowing without knowing a thing?

This is exactly what happened to me, when I made my biggest wish come true this year. I went to Israel. This is something I was always dreaming of. Do dreams come true? Yes, they do!

Why Isreal? This was something everybody would ask me. BECAUSE. There are so many reasons for me going there, that I would even not be able to write them all down here, but at least I would like to give the most crucial ones.

Living in Berlin, I was always feeling the jewish LACK in the city. I was seeing the stones in the ground and I felt that my husband, my family, and my belonging where missing here. A deeply rooted connection with Judaism that can not be explained or proved, but was always there.

Then I met this artist from TLV in Berlin’s most famous fetish club and everything he was telling me about Israel and TLV, I soaked it in like a sponge. Like a substance I was missing for such a long time and with him I began to seek and love everything that was connected with Israel. He became my drug I needed to get high.

With time, I met also Jews from eastern Europe, I also connected to immediately. This showed me how special these folks were. But also that I was missing something in my life that went way further than family or nationality. It was a special belonging I was longing for and all came together in this promised land I created my illusion of as a special place.

Therefore, 2017 I decided that it was time to prove whether this all was real or just a dream. I travelled to Israel all by my own and was more than amazed by the world that I found. Despite the nice weather and the incredibly modern city, I met exactly the kind of people I was looking for. I have no idea whether they know how special they are – I mean I saw documentaries on TLV! But I really felt that there is a reason why this is the holy land and why these people are seen by others as a threat. They are all conntected in a special way and they have an attitude I was longing for all my life. Live like there is no tomorrow.